Without closure there are distractions- I am attracted to them.
After you I welcomed one after another to keep me busy, to occupy my mind and silence my heart.
Carefully I let each of them in just a tiny bit to meet their expectations.
Painfully giving away pieces of the love that I grew for you, with you.
Pretending to replace the sorrow with new opportunity.
Lying to them and kissing them with eyes wide open and a bolted heart.
Drinking the shame away and numbing the awkwardness I gave myself away.
Praying that pleasure would overtake my overwhelming desire for you.
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